One week ago

Now that Kennedy's memorial service and funeral are over, the weight of my grief and longing feels heavier. Maybe it's because I'm no longer busy with planning. Maybe the planning helped me feel like her mother one last time - making sure that everything was perfect to honor her. Or maybe now that it's all over, it just feels more real, more final.

Today I'm feeling very lost. My heart aches for my baby and I want nothing more than to have her in my arms.

We lost her one week ago today and the pain is still overwhelming.